At 5:15 am eastern time my grandmother said goodbye to me
January 5, 2012 Leave a comment
My Nana died December 30 2011, she fell in a coma and died in her sleep she was 91. Yesterday we had her wake, all her friends and family came to say their last goodbyes. At the end my uncle stood up, and for the people who was still there thank them for coming. Everyone got up in left until my uncles family, and my family where left.
This was going to be hard for me 35 years my grandmother has been in my life, and this would be the last time I get to see her, and say goodbye. I waited until everyone said there goodbye, and then went to say mine I told her ” I love you and miss you and you where the greatest nana anyone could have”, and that was it. I got up put my coat on brought my mother and father home entertain some family who came over afterwards got a shower and went to bed.
Now honestly I don’t know what higher power I believe in if any. I was raised a catholic my wife is buddhist but this morning I dreamt of my nana,
I was in my sunroom and my mother was over my house and my aunt just talking and the Boston Celtics came up and I told my aunt they where an old team and I left the room. I walk into the living room and I look up and there was my nana coming out of the bathroom down the hall with her big grey coat on and her Louis vuttion pocket book that my wife gave her for Christmas two years ago and she took that purse everywhere. I ask her “nana where are you going?” She said ” I am going home.” I gave her a hug and then my alarm went off and I woke up.
I never had dreams like this before about any other family member that have passed. I know people will say its your subconscious coping with her death, but for the first time I am not going to believe that. I am going to believe it was my nana saying goodbye to me, and to let me know she was ok and going home.
This was posted by someone called Huxtible Jones. I don’t believe in god so I wont pray for your nana, instead I want to impart something to you that might make you feel better. Science shows us that every particle of matter from here to the end of the universe was at one time at an extreme dense and hot point that was smaller than the head of a pin. That means yourself, your nana, this planet, all the stars and galaxies, everything and everyone who has ever existed was at one time the same thing. When we die, our consciousness is ended and the energy kept in our body dissipates back into the universe, to be used again as another organism or perhaps to wait an interminable time underground. But one day, as this planet ends and if the universe does indeed go through a ‘big crunch’ at the end of its life, we will all be reunited again, closer to each other than we ever thought possible. So when you look up at the night sky and see all those massive furnaces in deep spaces burning wildly, remember that you’re looking at a part of you and her that you lost 14 billion years ago. Every photon of light is a part of us, we’re the product of stars forging complex elements inside of their massive bodies which then had to supernova so Earth could be pelted by everything beyond hydrogen and helium. The death of any person is a loss to us all for the very reasons I’ve outlined but know that one day in the future we’ll take the same walk back into the stars